Heh...going to college at Rockford College, I don't know what I want to do, I don't have any fucking clue what I'm supposed to do anymore. I don't sleep much at all, generally only two or three hours a night. I spend most of the day trying to connect with people that I just don't understand. I shouldn't be in college, I should be in Afghanistan with my Marines. Spend most of my nights contemplating life, trying to force myself to write but...the inspiration isn't there.
Trying to find a girl to make me feel alive again. We'll see how that goes.
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I feel ya man. I wanted to go to college, follow the linear path everyone before me: Go to college (party, have fun, pass minimally), get a job and work for the next 40 years of my life, and die a happy man. But after realizing that I will be in debt just like most Americans, my job in the future will be far more different and more sophisticated that my schooling will not prepare me, and the brink of global financial collapse? I just want to return to Luke's basement and be a kid again. . .safe from reality. . .playing as epic heroes or rockstars. . .sometimes I don't want to grow up.
ReplyDeleteYou know the weird thing is I'm not worried about that stuff, I'm legitimately more worried about dying alone.
ReplyDeleteThe world could be burning around me, and I'd be happy as long as I had a cute little loserface to hold my hand as we watched the ashes rise through the air.
With my realization I just don't care anymore. My sarcasm has turned into cynicism. Dieing alone is also on my mind, but I think time will bring me an opportunity. Yet, being away from you guys is the worst thing. . .as corny as this sounds you guys completed me. I can make friends here, but our connection was so strong. . .don't know if any new relationship can ever affect me like that (Agreed Ty, I've met some people similar to us, but it's just not the same).
ReplyDeleteAgreed.
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